If one struggles with identity and individuality, one may take on a persona, a performance, an image of somebody. Having shown the world an identity, one faces their mortality and starts to asks if what they believed was true. Does facing mortality make a difference to how one saw one’s self? How one believed in one’s self? Would an element of self-doubt or belief creep in, when one realizes that facing mortality can change everything one believed?
There are reviews I have done that I am proud of and there are reviews I have done I am not proud of. So, why would one send the piece in the first place? Individual reasons or circumstances differ, but writing can be a case of not doing as I do, but after I’ve done it, learn from it. Experience is a learner, but being thoughtful I have learnt is always better.
When is the right time to say goodbye to a piece one has written? There was this story I was working on from about 2008. It was kind of an epic, intended as a novel, but might have been a series of short stories instead. I wrote a few drafts, but it didn’t sound the way it should. So, I left it for a rainy day.
One day, I looked at it again with a pair of fresh eyes. Lifting the story to a better level wasn’t worth the effort. So, it is now safely filed away as a relic of a past writing experience, one that was worth it. Because it was experience in writing fiction. But it is the right time to say goodbye to that piece. It wasn’t executed the way it should and to get it right would be a drag. I just knew it was the right time to move on.
Motivation can be an issue for a writer if not on assignment. It’s possible for a writer not on assignment to be extremely motivated, but it’s also possible that a writer not on assignment is unmotivated to produce their own material. But the writer with a strong level of entitlement is a storm force.
The way something’s written can disguise any sort of attitude, agenda, and intent. Back in the Golden Era of Hollywood, some writers could carefully hide their beliefs in the script. The censorship of the time didn’t allow them to express something in the open. Today, carefully concealing a thought, attitude and belief is a tweak of a word away. Just say something a little more palatable than crude or more obvious.