In At Eternity’s Gate (2018), Van Gogh seemed to find enlightenment in a literal look at the gospels, without seeming to endorse gospel truth. The needs of the soul are somehow better reached if one takes what one sees in the gospel as it is. It speaks more fluidly.
A little annoyance in the writer’s life is good for the soul (not). Like you’re expecting an overwhelmingly positive reply, as you think, almost beyond a doubt, you are going to get the publication slot. But you don’t. It just seemed that way. It’s like a trick played on you, but you’ve been self-deluded. A wake-up call in many ways, but not a fully soul-destroying one. A writer just keeps on going, nevertheless, and processes the “trick” played on you by someone you trusted. Then, you start over again, perhaps a little more guarded next time.
Go ahead and start writing the story because once one starts writing it one may find it’s no longer relevant. One had worked through one’s issues just before the story crystalized. Onto something better.