This black and white is cold and clinical, but not disturbing. Although confronts us with our own uncomfortableness about it and how we should react differently. Putting yourself in his shoes is the ether dimension, our life was difficult to endure in light of this.
At first, he was aggrieved that his action had the consequence of limiting what could have happened, his lack of foresight and impatience denying him a blessing that would have been quite nice. He bore under it with a strong sense of grief, but it soon dissipated into the nothingness around him, and life went on.