I’m expecting an overwhelmingly positive reply, almost beyond a doubt, I am going to get the publication slot. But I don’t. It just seemed that way. It’s like a trick played on you, but I’ve been self-deluded. A wake-up call in many ways, but not a fully soul-destroying one. I keep on going, nevertheless, and processes the “trick” played on me. Then, I start over again, perhaps a little more guarded next time.
